Three years ago, when we started the McDaniel Romance Writing program, Jenny told us a story about how, at some conferences, she would hole up in a hotel room with her friends, one of them crying about what a hack writer she was, the other two consoling the weepy one over a bottle (or few) of wine.
Friday was one of those nights for me — minus the friends and wine. Not because my friends, the fellow Eight Ladies, wouldn’t have been there if I wanted them, but I was sick, and didn’t want them to catch what I had.
I’m not even sure how I ended up in a weepy puddle while on the phone with my husband. I’ve had an incredible streak of good fortune lately with my book. I’ve finaled in a few contests, I’ve figured out how to prop up my saggy middle, and I’ve gotten some amazing feedback. I had two pitches earlier that day. I admit I wasn’t in my best form (I would rather have been in the bathroom), but I received requests (even if they seemed like “sympathy” requests).
And yet I cried my little heart out. But I’m okay with that.
I think sometimes we need to have a down time…a time of self-doubt. Of introspection. Of self-awareness. (And if crying is involved…welll, that’s okay, too.) We need this so we remain determined and committed to work.
In the weeks to come, I’ll share some of the amazing things I learned at RWA Nationals. But right now, I’m still thinking about what I have to do. About how much work I have ahead of me, and how hard I will have to work to achieve my goals.
What do you do when you feel down about writing?